It is the last day of 2012, hell of the year!!! A few gigantic things happened this year, broke up with "the one" and realized he really wasn't the one afterall, changed my major, changed my career path, made some new friends, realized one of my friends is truly family and I am about to gain a niece (or nephew), I quit my job (still doesn't feel that way though... it just occurred to me I would be at work right now otherwise), and I feel like I have really become the woman I want to be. No regrets. Such a good feeling to be totally comfortable with who I am.
This is about the time that most people would list their resolutions, but I have come to the conclusion that I don't believe in new years resolutions... there is nothing to be gained by waiting to do something tomorrow, that could be done today.... (see what I did there, because tomorrow is New Years Day... get it... God I am funny.) But since my mom says that I can't go do anything while my dishwasher is running, I have some time to kill. Instead of the things that I want to improve upon, I will tell you all of the things I have accepted that I suck at.
I SUCK at being organized... everytime I clean my apartment I am like, this time... THIS time this shit is staying clean... fast forward a day and a half I have crap everywhere again! I seriously have NO idea how that happens. I have learned that there are some people who always put things down in the place that they go, and then there are people like me... who put things down where ever I happen to be standing, including the back of the couch and the floor, and rarely is that in the same place twice...
I suck at being on time... Now this is two fold, yes I actually do suck at showing up places at a designated time. "lets meet at 5" in my world always turns into "5:10"... I live my life 10 min behind. On top of that though... I suck at getting ready to be on time. I have no idea how it happens, I can give myself ample time, but seriously every time I am rushing out the door, with perfume spritzes and discarded outfits like a wake behind me. This is what a morning looks like when I am getting ready for work... Wake up, snooze until the last possible second, stand in the shower and then realize I snoozed my standing in the shower time away and quickly get things done. Search the basket full of clothes (that I have inevitably NOT folded when I did laundry) for an outfit throw it in the dryer to remove the wrinkles, with a spare just incase I don't like that outfit. I will then start to get ready, not before getting distracted by facebook on my phone while brushing my teeth. Halfway through roundbrushing my hair I look at the clock and realize I have 10 min to get to work, and begin rushing. Grab my outfit out of the dryer and burn the shit out of myself on the buttons from my pants. At the point I will think about making breakfast/coffee and realize I should have been at work 5 minutes ago and that I also don't like this shirt.... change my shirt while locking the door, run out to my car and wish I would have thought to warm it up... Oh shit... I forgot my cell phone...
I suck at doing laundry
I suck at winking... I look like I am having a stroke if I try to wink my left eye...
I suck at flirting. Oh my GOD I suck at flirting.... How I have ever managed to get boyfriends is beyond me. This is me on a date "Blah blah blah... Obama.... Blah blah... religion... Blah blah... Stereotypical gender roles.... Blah" Oh the date's over? Damnit... where where my moves!
I suck at change. And really at goodbyes...
I suck at living in the moment... This is one I am trying to change though. Its not a New Year's resolution, it is just a resolution. I spend SO much time thinking about school, graduation, grad school, bills, what I want to be when I grow up, that I tend to miss the right now! I am working on that one, any tips on HOW to do that would be appreciated!
Happy New Year guys, I am so grateful for all of you
Hey good timing, my dishwasher is done
